I’m not going to bother anymore. Not with this.

I miss you.

I guess you don’t want to talk to me either because you ignored my message. At least she didn’t.

Oh well. I wouldn’t blame you either. I just miss the company.

I still have your message by the way.

I don’t think I’ll ever delete it.

If I play ffx-2 again, I’m going to be really sad. Now that I’ve really thought about her future and everything- ugh.

I’m just sad now.

I guess I just want to go because I want to prove to myself that I can do it. I know I could if i really wanted to, but I’ll just come right back.

I found them.

Today was one of the longest days ever. After school made me realize how much of an asshole a person can be. Especially you. Idek. I think I’m like her. I like the beginning but once it’s established I just don’t care anymore.

I’m looking forward to Thursday.

I’m so close to crying. I know they’ll show up eventually but I need them now. Stories and music aren’t helping. Thinking of that’s making it worse.

Not even One Direction is cheering me up anymore.

I don’t know where they are and I can’t sleep without them.

Friday, May 17, 2013.

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